i don't believe i'm the only one

feeling like this.

trying so hard to keep all the plates
spinning. spinning. spinning.
spending time on just one plate to keep in perfect place.

then while you're not looking,
another begins to fall.

how can you keep them all in the air
with a smile on your face?

i honestly doubt i am capable.
i am not a circus performer.

just a girl. living each day. trying to find the balance.

but, maybe that's just it. maybe i'm not supposed to keep all things in place. maybe it's not my job. i think i've overstepped my boundaries on this one.

i think it's time to let some things go to the One who is meant to keep all things in place.

weekend news:

the house is feeling more like a home (and i absolutely can not wait until i get to officially move in as the mrs. in exactly 1 month from today) for the following reasons:

- tried out the washer/dryer. guess what? they work!

- made our first meal (and burnt the first batch of granola) with the dusty burny smell of the stove & a new recipe - mexican pizza. we only have 1 pan. and didn't quite bake the dough long enough, but it was a grand ole time none-the-less at 613 W. 11th st. dancin' in the kitchen & eating off our little end table... life is so sweet.

- bought a new bed & couch.... yippee! (first time ever buying real new nice furniture. so exciting)

- Jason took out the trash. we are not all about traditional gender roles & i'm sure i'll have my fair share of garbage days, but knowing we set out our brand spankin' new trash can on the curb was almost just a little bit fun.

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just a few short weeks until the wedding.

details are straightening out & i'm so incredibly excited i can hardly stand it.

it's been a whirlwind march - november and now we've got a new life starting. intertwined and stuck with me.
oh, baby. oh, baby.

wild child

mary oliver
chamomile tea in a red mug
red sweater
crisp day

ready for the weekend, but i'm afraid it may
pass by with hours filled
and memories unmade.

Lord, help me to remember that each day is a gift.
Let me wake up ready. Excited. Energetic.
To live one more for you.

because i've got time.

I've got about 1 million things due on Monday... but since it is Thursday I'm still feeling pretty optimistic about being able to get it all done. Life is just skipping along at the speed of... well, something very fast and I can't seem to keep up. But, today I've got a few extra minutes and I don't really want to get back to Gulliver quite yet.

So, here are my mutterings for the day - hoorah!

item #1. Toad's coffee = incredibly eclectic and very odd. quite time-consuming. and i love it. i stopped here this morning for a little caffeine and was pleasantly surprised by the little corner coffee experience. a very nice man named Toad, i think, measured and ground my freshly roasted coffee beans right in front of me and made my cup to order.
item #2. it is difficult for me to express how much i love taking a bath in my own house. it is a really wonderful thing. we're in the process of moving in to our little rental home and the bathtub is my favorite retreat thus far. not that the other rooms aren't lovely... i'm not quite sure what it is that sets the mini bathroom apart, but i like it.
item #3. Gulliver's Travels = pretty dirty the second time around. reading it in college is an entirely different experience. "Master Bates" - how did i not catch on in high school?
item #4. Thanksgiving break can not come soon enough. the to-do list is looming, we're in the middle of moving/wedding planning/pre-marital counseling blissfulness... but add on a full load of classes and a semi-stressful work environment... i might be borderline insane.